Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Final stretch...

My countdown reads 23 hours and 43 minutes left to live.

I will live as mindfully, authentically, and as fully as I am able over these last hours....

This practice has been instructive, insightful, challenging... and life-changing.

I don't view the world through quite the same eyes that I did when I embarked upon this practice.

I am not sure what I expected it to be... but, the reality was much different than what I *thought* I was getting involved in.

The practice was much more *real* than I expected it to be.

At first, the countdown unnerved me... now, it is only a countdown... we all have one.. in our heartbeat... our breaths... each step that we take... each moment. This one simply has numbers attached to it.

Of all of the various emotions that I feel as this year comes to a close... as my life of the past 50 years ends.. the one I feel most strongly as I write this now is gratitude.

There is so much more than I realized... and I didnt have to DO anything to access it... other than simply to do it. It was just like this all along... the entire time... and wonder how I didnt realize it for so long when it is all so simple.

I will go to sleep now... and sleep soundly... waking up to my last day on earth in a few hours.

I have an entire day left of this practice... and I will make every second count!


The Bad Yogi said...

Happy Re-birthday, Monk.

I've followed your journey with fascination, and have tried to start it myself more than once.

Thank you for sharing it with us.



Bunan Unsui said...

Thank you so much for taking the time to share your thoughts with me, my friend.

You know.. whether you start or whether you dont start... each day is dying practice for all of us. Just do the best that you can.. and give it all you've got! Attend to the moment and the days, weeks, months and years will sort themselves out!!

Thank you again for your kind comment!

Bows, palms joined...